Change Is Good.

I'm turning this blog into my own little online journal...fantastic. I think that's pretty much what it's supposed to be anyways...hey, maybe I'm catching on, better late then never I guess.

I don't think I appreciate my friends here enough. It's so nice to come home and see everyone everyday. It's funny how when we all left for college I was the only one who didn't want to go. I think everyone else is catching on. I've missed everyone insane amounts. I read a quote the other day that pretty much sums it up...

"Your college friends know who you are...but your high school friends know why."

So true.

In other news...I am convinced that my brother is going to be a rockstar. I hope that when he does he remembers that his sister backed him through it all even when he was telling me to stop listening to my favorite songs just because he hates the bands that I love.

Two of my best friends have birthdays tomorrow...20 and 21...when did this happen?

Finally.

So I haven't really figured anything out exactly...I just came to the realization that I was taking things way too seriously...everything was a big deal, not that I made things a big deal to the rest of the world (some things, yes) but most of it was arguments I had going in my head about where I really want to be when everything is said and done.

The answer is really simple...it always was. I want what everyone wants, to be happy. Just the same as so many other things...that is much easier said than done...especially for me...because I was always reaching for something bigger than I could really reach. People always say you can do anything but I'm getting realistic...I had to admit that even I have my limits, haha. And I think I always knew what I was doing...but I kept getting caught up in the little things...little discussions with my friends that turned into who's been hurt the most and who's had this or that...it was all so stupid because in the end it doesn't matter what we had then because it's gone now. It may have helped turn us into the people we are now, but that's all I need to know about it.

I know it's so cliche sounding to say, "Live every moment like it could be your last," but it's true. Our lives have the potential to change dramatically with every breath that we take...that fast. I'm not wasting any more breaths on being sad because something is missing...I am going to go get it...for the first time I feel like nothing is going to hold me back, and that really is all you need. The only person you need to have faith in you...is you. If you believe in yourself...no one can stand in your way. Let's be honest, it's always that much sweeter when people don't believe in you anyways...

So that's that..I'm done trying to make myself numb to things I think will bum me out...I want to feel everything because feeling keeps us living...I want to take risks, and make mistakes, I want to meet new people so that the all night dance parties get even more crazy, I want to take road trips to everywhere and nowhere, I want to take pictures so that I can show the world what I see because people don't appreciate how beautiful the simple things that we take for granted can be, I want to reach out and be reached out to...I feel like I'm finally in the right state of mind to really live.

Just in time.

Sweet Dreams World. I'll catch you in the morning. Be ready.

YES!

I HAVE FIGURED IT OUT. well, i have come to a very important conclusion. i also have to be somewhere...right now. blog lataa.